Double Whammy!

Aaand now I'm on bed rest with preeclampsia. It's not very often I go around pitying myself, but come on already! It has been very difficult coping with everything related to Oliver's condition and the polyhydramnios situation and now I have ample time to sit and worry about it more PLUS the added bonus of worrying about a condition that could take us both out. Iy, iy, iy.

It's a bizarre feeling, this preeclampsia. Most of the time I feel just fine, relaxing on the couch or lying in bed. But, boy, if I'm up for even a few minutes I feel awful. My blood pressure has been gradually increasing - from 150ish/85ish in the beginning to anywhere from 170-190ish/90-100ish. And I'm tired all the time. And I swell terribly. I even wake up swollen most days. There are things to look for that indicate things are taking a turn for the worse - blurred vision, headache that won't go away, abdominal pain - but, with the exception of some weird vision anomalies that I reported to the doctor, I'm not experiencing those things and hopefully never will. Besides the elevated blood pressure there's also protein in my urine, which gets there from the kidneys spilling it. With preeclampsia kidney and liver failure can happen and the high blood pressure can reduce oxygen to the baby and cause brain damage or death. Knowing this and being 40 minutes from the hospital has me feeling a lot of stress which I know can't help matters. So I try not to think about it too much, but sometimes it gets a bit overwhelming. I'm 33 1/2 weeks now. If my blood pressure continues to rise or any other complications appear they will have to induce. Between the polyhydramnios making my body think I'm about 38 weeks pregnant and the preeclampsia issue it's not looking like I'm going to be able to carry the poor kid to term. I'm sorry, Oliver! I'm trying my best to keep you in the oven as long as I can.

It sucks not being able to nest and get the house all tidied up for the company we'll have right after Ollie's born. Greg has been wonderful in taking care of me. He has even been preparing some meals! He works so hard already and to for him take on extra duties without the slightest complaint is just amazing. He really is such a wonderful husband!